GBP Chapter 77 Malfunction
Chapter 77 Malfunction
"I've really...didn't eat."
As Lu Yuan said, he closed the door with a "click", and stood at the door, looking at Mu Song pitifully, like a child locked out of his house with no food to eat.
Mu Song: ...
"I'm going to the lake to have a barbecue supper, do you want to eat?"
"Okay! Let's go!"
……
"Don't you have a bad stomach? Barbecue hurts your stomach..."
"I'll just order something unbaked."
Go to the barbecue stand to eat lettuce?
Mu Song rubbed his sore brows.
"Then eat the porridge you ordered, so as not to waste it."
Lu Yuan was stunned for a moment, then immediately took out his room card, swiped the door open, and welcomed Mu Song in.
After quickly tidying up the table, Lu Yuan introduced the porridge in detail while taking it out of the thermal bag.
"I ordered minced chicken porridge with mountain mushrooms. It is said that it is made in the same way as the steam pot chicken here, and it is fresher than ours..."
As he said that, he opened the lid, and the porridge in the earthen jar overflowed, indeed, it was very fragrant.
"Wait a minute, I'll go and heat the spoon."
Lu Yuan picked up the spoon from the thermal bag, picked up the kettle on the table, turned and went into the bathroom.
Sitting bored, Mu Songku glanced around casually, and saw the delivery list under the thermal bag, which read 17:40 brightly.
Look at the time now, it's almost nine o'clock.
……
This man has been hungry for three hours, is he waiting for him?
Seeing Lu Yuan coming out of the washroom, Mu Song was stunned for a long time, feeling so strange that he wondered if this person had been dropped.
"Come on, eat it while it's hot."
Lu Yuan handed Mu Song a spoon.
Holding the hot spoon, Mu Song took a spoonful of minced chicken porridge. The taste was indeed more pure and fresh than the one in G City.
It is not so much porridge, but more like a thick soup with rice added. The umami flavors of mountain mushrooms and chicken are all integrated into the porridge liquid, which is very delicious.
"How is it, is it delicious?"
Lu Yuan leaned forward slightly, across the dining table, approached Mu Song, and asked in a tone full of expectation.
Mu Song raised his eyelids, looked at Lu Yuan, who was shouting and calling the wind and rain, sitting in front of him, like a well-behaved child waiting to be praised, his heart softened, and he nodded.
"Okay, then I'll ask the kitchen later, how do you make this porridge, I'll make it for you every day when I get home..."
"Lu Yuan, did someone lower your head?"
"what?"
"Or, possessed by a ghost?"
Lu Yuan: ...
"What a mess..."
"I really don't understand why you did this?"
"what why?"
"To put it bluntly, the two of us have been stumbling for ten years, and the passion has long since disappeared.
Love, I think, you don't need..."
"Who said I don't need it?"
"Oh yes, you need it, but not with me."
Mu Song lowered his head, his eyes darkened, and his face became gloomy, which made Lu Yuan flustered for a while.
"Song, listen to me, there are really a lot of misunderstandings between us..."
"A misunderstanding, dragged on for ten years, is not a misunderstanding."
Lu Yuan: ...
When he said this, Mu Song had a smile on his face. If he didn't understand the pain in his heart, Lu Yuan would have thought that it was another one of his usual jokes.
After being together for so long, Lu Yuan only found out through Mu Song's novels after Mu Song left that this half-serious, half-joking expression hides his unwillingness to express emotions.
Those who understand will naturally understand, those who don't understand will just take it as a joke.
"Yes, I didn't do well. Before, I made a big mistake, but I really know that I was wrong, and I will change it..."
"Why do you want to change it?"
Mu Song still had a warm face, and with a word, Lu Yuanwen was stunned.
"It's not a day or two that you act like this. From childhood to adulthood, for more than 30 years, including now, you are still the same.
You said you changed?Change yourself?You can't change it.What you changed was only my position in your heart.
From a canary that can't catch your eyes to a VIP that must be handled, for the president of Lu Da who sees people as people and sees ghosts as ghosts, his attitude has changed 180 degrees, isn't it sprinkled with water? "
"no!"
Listening to Mu Song's interpretation of his intentions, Lu Yuan felt a headache and was a little wronged, but he couldn't think of a convincing explanation except for categorically denying it.
Mu Song knew him well, and it was normal to have such thoughts.
Indeed, for other people, it is really possible for him to turn his face like a book because of different purposes, and he doesn't feel that there is anything wrong with it.
The jungle of interests has its own social rules.
"The prosperity of the world is all for profit; the hustle and bustle of the world is for profit." This has been the case from ancient times to the present.
But between him and Mu Song, what profit is there?
All he wanted was Mu Song's unreserved love.
And this love, he didn't just figure it out today, he has been thinking about it for the past ten years.
It's just that, in the past, he didn't have to do anything. This love was like an ever-burning lamp that would never go out and would light up quietly for him.
Warming him, those dark corners that are not known to outsiders make his world always bright because of love.
He has always known, and has always been, greedy.
It's just that she was too confident, thinking that he would always be the lucky one to be favored, and no matter what, this love would never disappear.
He even felt that the relationship with Mu Song was stronger than the relationship with his parents.
His parents, from an early age, let him know that only when he performed well would he be loved by them.
And Mu Song, no matter what he is, loves him.
Before, he didn't know why this love could give him such a strong sense of security, and even become a "home" like existence.
He didn't know the answer until, during the time when he was frantically looking for Mu Song, he had a serious mental problem. His friends couldn't stand it anymore and recommended a psychiatrist.
It turns out that the greatest sense of security in a person's life is not having inexhaustible material money, but an unconditional love that will never disappear.
Material money, if you have one, you want two. With people's greed, it is endless and will never be satisfied.
Therefore, it does not bring a sense of security at all, and even affects the fear of losing because of possession.
And unconditional love, no matter you are glamorous or down and out, no matter whether you are healthy and beautiful, or sick and old, you will not change a bit, and accept everything about you completely.
You are you, you don’t need to do anything, you don’t need to change, it’s just there, neither born nor destroyed, neither increasing nor decreasing.
To be honest, Lu Yuan thinks that even he cannot love himself unconditionally, but Mu Song can.
Once you love, you will love for ten years.
In those ten years, although Lu Yuan couldn't explain the reason for this love, he still enjoyed it with peace of mind and was full of confidence, believing that it could last a lifetime.
who knew...
"No, Mu Song, I treat you..."
Seeing the light in Mu Song's eyes fading little by little, Lu Yuan was flustered and wanted to explain, but couldn't find the right words.
"Whether it's true or not, it's actually not that important. No matter what you think, for what reason, it's impossible for you and me to go back to the past.
Because, that kind of life, I really had enough.
To put it quite vulgarly, the best ten years have been wasted like this..."
Mu Song paused, then shook his head and smiled wryly.
"Actually, it's not. There are still some gains and improvements, but it's not the life I want anymore."
"I can give you whatever state of life you want!"
"Look, I said you can't change at all..."
Lu Yuan: ...
"You are a human being, and I am also a human being. If you run to four, I will soon be too. Why, should you give me the life I want?"
"I, I didn't mean that..."
"Lu Yuan, maybe no one else will tell you this, but now that I've talked about it today, I will reluctantly be a 'friend'.
You know, what is your biggest problem? "
Lu Yuan sat opposite, pursed his lips, and did not speak for a long time.
In fact, he knew that he had a lot of problems, but he didn't care.
Because, he thinks, most of these problems are his own innocuous quirks, which do not hinder others, and are not worth his effort to reflect on and correct.
After all, no one is perfect.
But since Mu Song brought it up, Lu Yuan felt that he could seriously consider it and make corrections as appropriate.
"You are too narcissistic."
"what?"
Lu Yuan couldn't believe his ears.
"Narcissistic? Me, where am I narcissistic?"
Young Master Lu's eyes widened.
Having grown up so big, no one has ever said that he is narcissistic, and even some critics praised him for being young and mature, high and humble.
Narcissism?How could such a low character be on him?
"Aren't you narcissistic yet? You are the most narcissistic person I have ever met, bar none—narcissistic to the bone."
Mu Song covered the finished porridge jar, stood up, walked to the wine counter, took two bottles of mineral water, put one bottle by Lu Yuan's hand, took the other bottle, and sat on the sofa not far away.
"That's right, Young Master Lu has stood at the top of the pyramid since he was a child, receiving elite education, and even at a young age, he is in charge of the family business, and he promises everything.
But, this doesn't mean that every thought, point of view, and word you have is correct, and it doesn't mean that others will look up to you. "
"I do not have……"
Lu Yuan felt that he had been misunderstood a bit cruelly this time, and couldn't help it, and wanted to justify a few words.
"I didn't expect others to look up to me. It's just that there are too many things. I hope to be more efficient and not have too many meaningless discussions..."
"Yeah, it's all according to your idea, so it's naturally efficient, what about others?"
"What else?"
Mu Song swallowed, took a deep breath, stood up, walked to Lu Yuan's side, bent down like talking to a child, and kept Lu Yuan's gaze level.
"Tan Tan, you have already passed the 3-year-old baby stage, open your eyes and see, you are not the only one in this world.
Everyone has their own emotions, people, things, and goals that they care about. It’s not that you cry or make trouble, and the earth will run according to your ideas. "
Looking at Mu Song's opening and closing lips, close at hand, Lu Yuan's chest rises and falls with the rising heat.
As a result, Mu Song didn't really hear what Mu Song said.
Because, from the moment he said "Tan Tan", Lu Yuan's rationality collapsed.
Mu Song rarely called him by his nickname because he didn't like it.
This title is almost exclusive to his grandfather. When he grows up, even his parents rarely call him that.
Therefore, it more or less included Lu Yuan's respect for his grandfather, and after his death, few people mentioned it again.
At this moment, when Mu Song suddenly recalled this title, Lu Yuan's heart trembled, more than half of the five-flavored bottle was knocked over, and the way he looked at Mu Song changed.
"Song..."
"Snapped!"
Lu Yuan raised his hand, just as he was about to touch the face of his lover in front of him, he was slapped down by Mu Song.
"Thank you for your dinner. I'm full and I'm leaving first."
Mu Song straightened up and walked out swaggeringly.
"stop!"
Mu Song turned around impatiently.
"Anything else?"
"..."
Lu Yuan took a deep breath, suppressed the unexpressed enthusiasm, turned his face, and looked at Mu Song.
"Tomorrow, where do you want to go shopping?"
"visit?"
"Aren't you here to relax?"
Lu Yuan pouted.
"It seems that these few days, I've been staying in a remote village with a group of college students. The flight is only available the day after tomorrow, and I can still go shopping tomorrow.
If there is any scenic spot you want to visit, I can let Xiao Zhang... I will arrange it myself. "
Mu Song looked at Lu Yuan, stunned for a while, and suddenly became happy.
"Okay, then tomorrow, let's go burn some incense together."
"Burning incense?"
Lu Yuan frowned.
"Why? I don't want to go...then don't force me. I'm going back. Good night."
"Okay, no problem, I'll call you at 8:00 tomorrow morning."
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The author has something to say:
Lu Yuan: Wife, can I call Tan Tan again? /shake arm
Mu Song: Did you know?Bai Xu's dog is also named TANTAN...
Lu Yuan: ...Fuck, this little bastard is really a disaster!
Bai Xu: Hehehe, even when you are offline, you can be bothered~~~/Yeah
(*: from "Six Ways of Proverbs")