Flowers bloom without worries

Chapter 182 Late Night Chat (2)

Xiao Chuhan thought for a long time, and finally said: "And the person you can't forget in your heart is also the one who brought you into the darkness. You once told me that it was he who brought you to the organization and trained you to be a cold-blooded killer. So, if he really loved you, why would he lead you step by step into darkness instead of light?"

Xiao Chuhan's words were like a sharp sword, piercing Lan Xi's heart, and she couldn't help but fall into deep thought. What Xiao Chuhan said was indeed reasonable. If Gu Tingyan hadn't brought her to the organization and personally trained her to become a killer, she might have been just a poor child without parents. However, she could live an upright life like now, instead of living in fear every day, always worrying that her life would be in danger at any time.

"I don't know what it feels like for two people in love to be together. I don't know what it feels like to like someone."

"But he is the only one in my life. You are right, it was he who pushed me into the abyss of darkness. But it was also he who gave me the only warmth in the darkness. After I left, wasn't I unconscious for a while? I returned to him in the form of a soul. Seeing that he lived in pain every day because of losing me, and even had thoughts of suicide, my heart was really broken, and I hated myself for being powerless."

Xiao Chuhan listened quietly to Lan Xi's story, his heart aching.

"You said that when you first fainted in the palace, your soul returned to your time."

"Well, yes, I accompanied Gu Tingyan silently in the form of a soul. At first, he couldn't detect my existence at all, but on the night when he decided to end his life, when I tried to take the knife from his hand, a miracle happened - Gu Tingyan actually saw me! In this way, we spent a few days together full of happiness and unforgettable memories. Although I was confined to the room and couldn't move freely, I felt extremely satisfied in my heart."

"Before I disappeared, I promised him that I would find a way to come back and be by his side again. And Gu Tingyan also promised me that he would live strong and wait for my return. I think this is liking, or more precisely, love."

Xiao Chuhan keenly captured the subtle changes in Lan Xi's eyes. Xiao Chuhan understood that in Lan Xi's heart, Gu Tingyan was not only the person who brought her into darkness, but also the ray of light that dispelled the darkness in her heart.

However, how could he enter her inner world so easily? Moreover, he was also confused at the moment. Xiao Chuhan couldn't help asking himself: Who did he really like, You'er, or Lan Xi, who brought him a new feeling? If he fell in love with someone easily, would this feeling be sincere and credible? These questions kept lingering in Xiao Chuhan's mind, making him feel confused and at a loss.

Lan Xi seemed to have noticed the subtle changes in Xiao Chuhan's heart. She sighed softly and then slowly said, "Xiao Chuhan, in fact, I am just a novelty to you. I come from the distant future, and I am completely different from those gentle, quiet, and submissive ladies around you. They never fight for anything, but I have a strong personality and a strong desire to win. Not only that, I will bring you some new things from time to time. Perhaps, this feeling is the so-called novelty for you, but it does not mean that you really like me."

Lan Xi paused and continued, "True liking and love are not like this. They should be deeper emotions, not just based on a temporary sense of novelty. Deep in your heart, the person you have always loved is You'er, the woman you can't forget the first time you met her. And I am just a passerby, a stranger who aroused your brief interest."

At this moment, Xiao Chuhan was full of confusion. Xiao Chuhan was not sure what kind of feelings he had for Lan Xi. However, Xiao Chuhan knew very well that his feelings for Lan Xi were not just a temporary novelty. Once upon a time, at a certain moment, he did have feelings for Lan Xi. But before he figured out who he really liked, Xiao Chuhan decided to bury his feelings deep in his heart.