GBP Chapter 108 I Always Feel That I’m Not Treating You Well Enough
Chapter 108 I Always Feel That I’m Not Treating You Well Enough
In her previous life, Yan Wan followed Ruyi like a loyal dog for a long time because of Jinzhong's advice and because she herself was a person who sought profit and avoided harm.
At that time, no matter who was disrespectful to Ruyi, the queen, she would bar her teeth and bark, and loyally protect her master.
Therefore, she actually knew a lot of Ruyi's secrets.
For example, Ruyi once gave advice to the empress dowager, and not long after that, the emperor chose Jingjue to marry.
For example, the Emperor and the Empress Dowager had always been at odds with each other, and the mother and son lived like political enemies. Ruyi was able to play both sides and gained a lot of benefits.
In this life, if Ruyi still plays like this...
Yan Wan couldn't help laughing out loud just thinking about it.
Although no one knows why the Empress has become completely different from the past, the Empress Dowager is also very different from the past, and even the Emperor occasionally reveals the temperament of a normal emperor, the final result is really interesting.
Yanwan said to Jinzhong: "Sometimes I really envy you."
Jinzhong was stunned: "Does your master envy me?"
Yan Wan's beautiful eyes were filled with interest: "You serve the emperor every day..."
This statement made Jinzhong's heart sink suddenly, and he almost couldn't keep a straight face.
If Lingzhuer likes Ling Yunche, then he can still fight for it. If he likes the emperor...
He is your mistress's legitimate husband and the most powerful man in the world.
Just this one sentence made him feel completely soaked in bitterness.
"…Ruyi is very interesting. She has no family or sisters in her heart. She wants to hang herself on the emperor's belt every day and see with her own eyes who the emperor loves more than her. In the future, Ruyi will make endless embarrassments. It's a pity that I can't see it all the time. I really envy you."
Jinzhong: “…”
His face twitched slightly.
The heart dies because of a word, and comes alive because of a word.
A hint of helplessness flashed across his beautiful fox eyes: "As long as the master wants to know, I will definitely see every detail clearly every time and tell you later."
Yan Wan smiled happily: "That's what you said."
Jinzhong curved his eyebrows and said, "As long as you are happy, I am willing to do anything."
Since he left the capital until now, because it always takes a long time to see her, he sometimes wakes up in the middle of the night and sits up and thinks until dawn. Why is it that last time, no matter what he did, she didn't like him in the end?
When he received her gift that day, and saw how miserable Ling Yunche was, having been sent to the same fate as in his previous life by her own hands, his desire for revenge suddenly lost interest, and that night, he suddenly figured it out.
At that time, she was in a weak position. Even though she was already a concubine, she had to rely entirely on his information and teachings to win his favor. Many times, he forced her to do things she didn't like and to give up her favorite things.
How could a normal person, especially someone as ambitious as Ling Zhu'er, tolerate herself to like someone who completely controls her life?
If she could really be forced to change her mind by power, shouldn't the person she should fall in love with the most be the emperor?
He had never treated her well enough, and she always lost too many things in pain.
Yan Wan saw Jin Zhong's smile suddenly fade, and her heart twitched: "What's wrong with you?"
Jinzhong followed her obediently: "I always feel that I didn't treat you well enough before."
Yan Wan paused for a moment, a sour feeling welling up in her nose: "I know, I often feel this way, too."
Jinzhong was stunned.
Yan Wan said softly, "I mean, I often feel that I've been too harsh on you and not good to you. Later, I realized that love is about always feeling indebted, not always feeling inadequate."
She turned her head and glanced at him: "Besides, you and I are different from before. It's normal to think differently than before."
At that time, it was the first time for everyone to go through that journey. How many years had they been in this world? It was common to take the wrong path.
When she was young and climbing up step by step, there were too many things and feelings that seemed much more important than the person in front of her under the circumstances at that time.
She showed a sweet and gentle smile: "You should go back. Remember what I told you. Let your master make a fuss. Just think about how to get rid of yourself and the people you like."
Jinzhong's beautiful Adam's apple rolled up and down, and he finally responded, "Yes, Master, please go slowly. I will take my leave."
Yan Wan looked at him with a smile: "Go ahead, I'll watch you go."
Jinzhong was reluctant to let her see his back, but when he raised his head and met her eyes, he couldn't say a word of refusal. He bowed, took two steps back, turned around, straightened his body, and walked away.
Yan Wan held Chun Chan's hand and said, "Chun Chan, look at him. He treats me so well, but I always feel it's not enough."
Chunchan replied softly, "Eunuch Jinzhong has always been like this."
She looked at Yan Wan tenderly: "But my Lord, you deserve the best!"
Wang Chan, who had been pretending to be mute and keeping watch with his two eyes, let out a long sigh: "That's right! That's it! Our master deserves the best!"
Yan Wan was so happy with the two men's coaxing that she ate two extra bowls of rose sweet soup for supper.
Within two days, the news that Mongolia wanted to marry the legitimate princess spread throughout the palace.
Yan Wan calculated the time and found that it was nearly half a month earlier than in her previous life.
However, I don't know whether this advance notice was a favor from Li Yu to Ruyi, or whether the Emperor deliberately leaked the news to test the Empress and the Queen Mother.
As soon as Yan Wan heard the news, she went to Empress Fucha. As soon as she entered, she saw an old doctor coming out. Lian Xin had a worried look on her face and was talking to the doctor.
Yan Wan stepped forward quickly: "Madam, are you sick?"
Lian Xin smiled when she saw her: "Lady Lingpin, go and see the queen!"
Yanwan hurriedly lifted her skirt, went up the stairs, and quickly walked into the house.
There was still a strong smell of medicine in the room. Empress Fucha was lying on the bed with a pale face, her eyes closed and tears streaming down her face.
Yan Wan felt as if her heart was being cut by a knife. She quickly walked over, but she didn't see Empress Fucha open her eyes.
She suppressed the panic in her heart and called her softly, "My Lady, please look at me."
Empress Fucha opened her eyes with difficulty, breathing weakly: "Wanwan, did I scare you?"
She tried her best to pretend that nothing was wrong, but her physical condition was there. She gasped violently after just the slightest movement, and then started coughing continuously, as if she was going to cough out her lungs.
In fact, Yan Wan felt distressed and scared. She was afraid that she would worry, so she pretended to be very good and even comforted her: "Don't be afraid, Your Majesty. I will help you find a way. As long as it is what Your Majesty wants, I will do my best to plan for you."
Empress Fucha wanted to comfort her, but her cough was so severe that she couldn't speak at all.
Yan Wan patted her back with shaking hands: "My queen, don't think about anything, don't be angry, don't be anxious, you know me better than anyone else, you believe me..."
Empress Fucha held her hand tightly and said, "Wanwan, don't be impulsive. Jingjing is my child, and you are also my child. No mother who loves her children would be willing to watch one child sacrifice for another! You don't have to sacrifice for anyone! Do you hear me? I won't allow it!"