GBP Chapter 6 The Past
Chapter 6 The Past
"Do you have an ex-girlfriend?" When Yuan Jiefeng asked this question, he and Su Youqin were in the exhibition hall of an abandoned factory in the suburbs of Haicheng.
At that time, they saw a girl in the corner secretly kissing the girl next to her. After the kiss, the two looked at each other and smiled.
The happy and contented appearance made Su Youqin curl his lips.
Yuan Jiefeng pulled her away from here.
"Why are there still lesbians?" Yuan Jiefeng's tone was not very good.
Su Youqin's expression changed.
When she agreed to be with Yuan Jiefeng at the beginning, what she liked was that he was knowledgeable and good-natured.Unexpectedly, Yuan Jiefeng revealed something about a young couple he bumped into by accident.
"Why are you talking like that?" Su Youqin's voice was very calm, but with a strong sense of questioning.
"I'm not wrong. Aren't they lesbians?" Yuan Jiefeng didn't take it seriously: "Why do girls stay with girls? Isn't it strange? Freaks!"
Su Youqin was a little angry.She was angry at Yuan Jiefeng's disrespect.Those two girls looked happy and happy, what did they have to do with Yuan Jiefeng.
Anger suddenly rushed into her mind, she stared at Yuan Jiefeng, and said quickly: "What's wrong with girls and girls together? I used to be with girls, you don't need to watch it if you don't like it, it's too much to scold others."
Yuan Jiefeng was stunned.
He grasped what he believed to be the key point from Su Youqin's words: "Have you ever been with a girl? You are gay."
Su Youqin was stunned by the question, and said angrily: "You say yes. Anyway, I have been with girls before, and I respect everyone's sexual orientation."
"You have an ex-girlfriend?" Yuan Jiefeng raised his voice, "Damn, then you want to marry me, are you sick?" He was furious and walked out of the exhibition hall.
Su Youqin went mad with anger.Seeing him disappear at the door, he hurriedly chased out of the exhibition hall, but the other party drove away in a car.
Yuan Jiefeng left Su Youqin behind.
After the two had already met their parents, they were on their way to the outskirts of Haicheng.
Although there is an exhibition hall in this place, it is in a very remote suburb of Haicheng, and it is not a weekend, so there are relatively few people.
The taxi app couldn't get a taxi, so Su Youqin had to go to the station three or four kilometers away. After walking for a while, a private car passed by her. The driver opened the window and asked her if she wanted a ride.
Su Youqin was worried.The driver was honest. He stopped the car and took out his driver's license and driving license, saying that he was a passenger in a private car and was just going to Haicheng to pick up someone.He can show Su Youqin the ID for a photo.
The station is still far away.Su Youqin thought for a while and got into the car.After getting in the car, she sent several messages to Yuan Jiefeng, but the other party never replied.
The street trees outside the window flashed by quickly, Su Youqin watched the leaves swaying with the wind, her anger gradually disappeared, she thought of Yuan Jiefeng's question.
gay?is she?
right?
Her first love was Ai Yun. They were together for four years, and they did everything they should and should not do. She gave all the love and sincerity she could give at that time.
After breaking up with Ai Yun, she had an empty bed for nearly five years, and her family urged her to die. She had to find a way to fight for her freedom in the next few decades—to be with Yuan Jiefeng purposefully.
Is it really?
The dusty wind made Su Youqin's forehead dizzy.She squinted her eyes, thinking that she should be the one who likes girls more.
Yuan Jiefeng's message came half an hour later: "I always thought you just didn't like bed&things. It turns out that you just don't like my body, it's a bit disgusting, let's break up."
Su Youqin was very speechless.
She took a few deep breaths and was about to reply to the message, when she suddenly heard the sound of tires rubbing and the driver's exclamation.
She looked up, and a black shadow bumped into her instantly.
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Shen Qianyao: "Your ex-girlfriend is Ai Yun?"
After Su Youqin nodded, the complexion on Shen Qianyao's face became even more complicated.
Neither of them thought that when they were young, they already had a relationship, but the relationship separated other people, allowing them to move forward in parallel in the same time and space without intersecting.
The sizzling sizzling steak was served, and the jumping oil splashed on Su Youqin's hands, and she shrank her hands back.
The two silently picked up the knife and fork to cut the beef. The quality of the beef was average, but the taste was not as bad as they remembered.The young couple sitting next to each other were acting coquettishly feeding each other, their soft voices made them speechless.
For a while, the table was very quiet.
There is a tendon on Su Youqin's beef, which cannot be cut with a knife.
She should have avoided the tendon and cut the meat next to it, but she struggled with the tendon for a while with the knife and fork, until the boy in the young couple next door shouted for the waiter to add more dishes, and Su Youqin put down the knife and fork.
Shen Qianyao didn't know what to think of, and chuckled out loud, breaking the silence between the two.
Su Youqin raised her head and opened her mouth: "What are you laughing at?" Her lips were moving, and the air in her mouth was also vibrating, but no sound came out.
The depression that had just been suppressed swept over, and she only felt a nameless irritability rising in her heart.
Shen Qianyao stared at her for a few seconds, lowered her head slightly, and moved the knife and fork again: "I was wrong just now, you are not like Fu Lili." She said slowly, "Fu Lili is not as good as you."
Su Youqin thought of Fu Lili, and sneered inwardly. She opened her mouth, pushed the iron plate slightly forward, picked up her mobile phone and typed: "I also think that she is not as good as me."
Shen Qianyao unlocked the phone with her little finger and opened the dialog box and smiled: "Look, this is not the same. If Fu Lili was told that others are inferior to her, she would definitely refute in a low voice, saying that others are also very good."
Su Youqin didn't respond.She moved the iron plate, and the steak turned in the other direction, jumping over the tendon.
Shen Qianyao put the skewers next to her into the pot: "Boss Su, do you know why I said you were very similar just now?" She concentrated on burning the skewers, and said slowly, "Just now on the side of the street, you stood downstairs and looked up. In an instant, it was very similar to when Fu Lili stood downstairs and looked at me."
"Boss Su, do you believe in love at first sight?"
Su Youqin raised her eyebrows slightly, and quickly sent the four words plus a symbol to Shen Qianyao's phone: "Wanted by sex?"
Unexpectedly, Su Youqin was so direct, and Shen Qianyao was amused and helpless: "The essence of love at first sight is lust at first sight, which is true. However, the first time I saw Fu Lili, it was not lust, but just wanting to protect. You If you know her, you should understand that she is very good at taking advantage of her own weakness."
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The relationship between Shen Qianyao and Fu Lili comes from pity and being pitied.
Yuanchuan City Middle School is a national key middle school, and Yuanchuan No. [-] Middle School is a provincial key school. Even so, the city's national key title comes from the state's educational support for Yuanchuan. In the eyes of locals, the two middle schools are at the same level .
It's just that the school's enrollment focus is different. In the city, most of the students are promoted from the township middle schools in Yuanchuan City, while in the No. [-] City Middle School, most of the students are promoted from the middle schools in the city's districts and counties.
Consistent with the style of the students, the city center is on a mountain in the suburbs of Yuanchuan City, and there are basically no residential areas around. There is only an old street outside the campus, and the only bus that can go up the mountain is a small bus with 24 seats.The City No. [-] Middle School is located in the urban area, and there are only two stops to the downtown square.
In the first year of high school, the elders of Shen Qianyao's family accidentally discovered that she had sneaked out of the school to play at night. In the second year, her parents let her transfer from the city's No. [-] middle school to the city with the excuse that the science in the city was better.
Shen Qianyao didn't have any opinion on the matter of transferring schools.She has friends in the city and No. [-] middle school, and we often meet each other. No matter which middle school she is in, she will never be lonely.
After transferring to the city, Shen Qianyao, who was good-looking and talented, soon became a conspicuous figure in the class.It just so happened that the literary and art committee member in the class was going to transfer to the art and sports class to take the path of a special art student, and this position fell on Shen Qianyao.
Although the city is paying close attention to students' learning, there are also many extracurricular activities that should be available.
In the autumn sports meeting after the National Day holiday, the school added cheerleading competitions, requiring each class of Senior One and Senior Two to form a ten-member cheerleading team. Cheerleaders vote.
Shen Qianyao had never been in contact with a cheerleading team before, and most of the people in the class were only interested in studying, and they looked at a loss, so she had to ask her other friends for help.
A friend introduced her to a third-year senior in high school who is an aerobics athlete and a cheerleader for the Motokawa City Sports Team.
Before evening self-study, Shen Qianyao went to the senior three teaching building to look for her seniors, and saw a thin girl hit by the wall by two chasing and running boys. In Shen Qianyao's eyes, she was taken aback for a moment, and was about to ask if the other party was okay, when she saw the girl's eyes were moist, she glanced at her, and left in a hurry.
The senior sister agreed to Shen Qianyao's request and went back at night to help her choose the tune and Yi Xue's cheerleading dance.The next day, Shen Qianyao came to pick up the USB flash drive and was talking with her senior on the balcony. She happened to see the girl she met yesterday passing downstairs. The senior also saw the girl and called her name.
The weather was just right that day, the blue sky, white clouds and autumn wind were blowing on the face, the eyes without moisture looked over with doubt and bewilderment, the good-looking facial features and the thin figure all fell into Shen Qianyao's eyes, Shen Qianyao grabbed the hand holding the USB flash drive , she asked her senior who is that girl?
The senior sister told her that the girl was Fu Lili, who was in the liberal arts repeat class.When I was in elementary school, my senior sister and Fu Lili were in the school choir together, and they had some friendship.
Fu Lili was originally the daughter of the head of Pingchuan District. Two years ago, the head of the district was arrested in an accident. His wife fell ill and died. Afterwards, she was pissed many times overtly and secretly, and her classmates also looked at her differently, which caused her to suffer a lot of grievances.
Shen Qianyao looked at the back of Fu Lili going away, and remembered the conversation between father, second father and aunt at the dinner table a long time ago, mentioning that a district chief was taken away by the discipline inspection committee, and his daughter played truant from No. Regarding the matter of punishment, is that daughter Fu Lili?
For a moment, Shen Qianyao felt a strange feeling in his heart.It may be because her parents and relatives are basically in the political circle, she resonated with Lily.What would happen to me if something happened to my parents?
She asked senior sister Fu Lili how she was doing now, and whether any classmates bullied her.Senior sister doesn't quite understand either.
Before Shen Qianyao left the senior three teaching building, she turned to the window of the liberal arts re-reading class. Fu Lili was lying on the table, and the people around were busy doing homework or talking quietly, and no one cared about her.
From that scene, Shen Qianyao forcibly saw Fu Lili's loneliness.
For several nights after that, Shen Qianyao dreamed of Fu Lili being alone.Later, she couldn't bear it anymore, and deliberately went to the cafeteria half an hour late, and entered the cafeteria with the senior high school students, and exchanged names with Fu Lili in the queue.
"I found out later that she didn't have a hard time in those two years. Although she didn't have parents, she had grandparents and a girl she liked, who always accompanied her and encouraged her." Shen Qianyao said lightly: "And the one who accompanied her The one who supported her, encouraged her, and even made her agree to my pursuit is Ai Yun."
The soup in the skewer pot was boiled, and the rolling red soup was full of peppercorns floating on it. Su Youqin looked at the peppercorns and felt numb in her heart. She reached out and picked up a skewer of beef, blew two mouthfuls, and bit the beef into it expressionlessly. mouth.
Fu Lili in Su Youqin's eyes is Ai Yun's good friend.
Ai Yun is sunny and energetic. Qi Liu Hai has piercing eyes. She likes to laugh. When she smiles, she has two dimples on her cheeks.
Fu Lili is different from Ai Yun. She looks exquisite but deserted. She always has a feeling of being separated from her classmates. She rarely smiles, but when she smiles, the corners of her eyes are crooked, and the sense of desertion and alienation will disappear a lot.
Su Youqin and Ai Yun are not in the same class.
The two didn't officially know each other until their sophomore year of high school.But in the freshman year of high school, Su Youqin met Ai Yun.At that time, the two classes were on different floors, and they had physical education classes several times. When Su Youqin hurried to the playground, he would always see a beautiful girl standing by the door talking to someone, and the two met several times.
At that time, Ai Yun was a member of the school's broadcasting club, and Su Youqin was a member of the school's literature club.
The literature club in the city is an important part of the student union, and it publishes a publication of about fifty pages almost every month.Su Youqin joined the literature club as soon as she entered high school, and became the vice president of the literature club in her sophomore year.
The directors of the literary club are all senior high school students, and the actual work is done by the vice president.
Just after the second year of high school, the literary club is preparing to release a song to commemorate the [-]th anniversary of the school's literary club.
The president inquired that there was a student named Ai Yun in the school broadcasting agency, who had played music since elementary school and could compose music.He handed over the task of writing lyrics to Su Youqin, and asked her to meet Ai Yun.
When Su Youqin knocked on the door of the broadcasting room, Ai Yun and a male classmate had just finished broadcasting a piece of news. Hearing the knock on the door, when he raised his head to meet Su Youqin's gaze, Ai Yun was obviously shocked for a moment, and then smiled: "It's you, yes What's the matter?"
Su Youqin ignored the familiarity of the other party's words, and briefly told Ai Yun about the social song, and Ai Yun asked her to wait beside her. After her broadcast was over, the two left the broadcasting room together.
Since it was noon, the two of them didn't have to rush back to their dormitory or class.Su Youqin accompanied Ai Yun to the cafeteria for lunch, and the two made an appointment about the direction and finalization time of the social song.
Ai Yun said that she composes very quickly.Because it is a social song, the lyrics are more important. Su Youqin needs to write the lyrics first, and then she composes the music based on the lyrics.
Su Youqin was writing lyrics for the first time, although she took on the burden, she would not talk big.She exchanged contact information with Ai Yun, only saying that she would finish it as soon as possible.
When they were in high school, smart phones were not yet popular, and the students had all kinds of button phones in their hands, and everyone communicated with each other through emails and text messages.
After adding friends with □□, Su Youqin entered Ai Yun's space to watch.Ai Yun used the couple space, and when they were eating in the cafeteria at noon, she also sent a message saying that the only word was happiness.The people who used the couple space with her commented below and asked her why she was happy, and she replied with a smiling kaomoji.
High school students have a lot to say.Ai Yun's talk is the same as Su Youqin's, full of daily life.However, unlike Su Youqin, she has a lot of stave-like things in her diary, as well as in her photo album. It looks like someone who likes music.Su Youqin left the word "Tampai" and turned off the phone.
When she returned to the dormitory at night, she found that there were more than 100 messages in her space, all of which were left by Ai Yun. At the beginning, it was also a common stamp, and then each message was full of lyrics, from school songs to national anthems to pop songs, Su Youqin was so frightened that she quickly sent her a message and asked her what she was doing with a smile.
After this time, the frequency of chatting between the two gradually increased. They chatted about everything, from social songs to which university they were admitted to, from teachers to classmates, from friends to childhood friends.
Fu Lili's name frequently appeared in Ai Yun's chats. Su Youqin knew that Fu Lili was her classmate in elementary school. After entering high school, she suddenly transferred to the city. Now the two are best friends in the class.
Ai Yun's couple space is also used with Fu Lili.
On the weekend after the social song was written, Ai Yun took Su Youqin to the music room of the school, and played the social song on the piano again. The brisk and bright tune danced in the piano room. Su Youqin focused his eyes on Ai Yun's beating fingers, Appreciation, love, pleasure and all kinds of emotions filled her heart.
She moved the piano bench and sat next to Ai Yun, recalling the fingering of the electronic organ she had learned when she was a child, and went to touch Ai Yun's fingers in the middle register in the high register. Ai Yun smiled and slowed down, playing with Su Youqin.
The two played in the piano room for more than two hours.
Leaving the building where the music room is located, Su Youqin saw a girl wearing a loose summer school uniform, sitting in the shade of a tree, with a calm expression on her face, waving at Ai Yun. ——This is the first time Su Youqin and Fu Lili met.
They met many times after that, Fu Lili always had a cold expression, but Su Youqin didn't care.Because she could feel that Fu Lili and Ai Yun had a good relationship.Ai Yun's friend was regarded by Su Youqin as his friend.
In fact, Su Youqin really regarded Fu Lili as a friend. When he was the busiest in the third year of high school, he knew that Fu Lili was not good at mathematics, so Su Youqin took time to make up her mathematics for her, and even helped her sort out all the recitations of history and politics.
She thought that she was good enough to deal with Lily, but she didn't expect that the result was Fu Lili's harm to herself.
At the end of the first semester of the sophomore year, Ai Yun and Su Youqin had conflicts after a quarrel. Su Youqin took the train for more than ten hours to find her, but ran into Fu Lili at the school gate.
At that time, Fu Lili had been on the university campus for half a year, she was dressed in fashion, and the exquisiteness between her eyebrows and eyes was vividly presented in light makeup.She handed Su Youqin a cup of hot milk tea, and said from the corners of her eyes that she went to see Ai Yun yesterday, and Ai Yun said that she and Su Youqin were very tired together, and the long-distance relationship was very hard.
Su Youqin thought that she wanted her to take care of Ai Yun's emotions, but she didn't expect Fu Lili to say that she could take care of Ai Yun instead of Su Youqin.
Su Youqin was shocked. She threw most of the cup of hot milk tea into the trash can at the school gate. She was not driven away by Fu Lili's words.
She went to find Ai Yun, and the two reconciled after hugging and crying at the gate of their school library.Fu Lili stood not far from them and watched for a long time, until the two separated, she handed a tissue to Ai Yun.
Su Youqin and Ai Yun maintained a romantic relationship for more than a year, until the beginning of junior year, Su Youqin saw the photo of Ai Yun and Fu Lili kissing.
The photo was sent by a stranger via MMS. In the era of popular smartphones, there are very few people who can use MMS. Su Youqin looked at the photo and choked uncomfortably, but she didn't take the initiative to ask Ai Yun about it.
At that time, she already had a premonition that she and Ai Yun would be separated.Especially when she inadvertently clicked into Ai Yun's private space again, she suddenly realized that the couple space between Ai Yun and Fu Lili has not changed for so many years.
Su Youqin didn't blame Fu Lili for separating from Ai Yun, she only blamed Ai Yun.The last message from the person who made her feel so heartbroken was very hurtful. She said: "Susu, for so many years, I thought I was waiting for you, waiting for you to plan our future development with me, but you have The direction I want, I can’t see that direction. Looking at Lily yesterday, I suddenly realized that you are very similar to Lily, especially the lower half of your face, and the occasional confused expression. Looking at her, I think I understand, rather than saying that I am waiting for you, it is better to say that I am waiting for a girl who can walk side by side with me, and now I have found this girl. I am sorry, Susu, I love you, but I can only love you. I I want to go abroad to get married with Lily."
At that time, Su Youqin felt at a loss when she saw the message from Ai Yun.
Yes, she did not choose the same city as Ai Yun after the college entrance examination, nor did she consider it with Ai Yun when she wanted to go abroad.But this does not mean that she has given up walking side by side with Ai Yun.
She went to a big city just because her score was more appropriate to go to that university; she didn't want to go abroad with Ying and Ai Yun because she knew that her family background was different from Ai Yun's, and her family couldn't afford to study abroad without a scholarship. cost of.
She figured it out, after Ai Yun went abroad to study, she would stay in the big city to make money, and when Ai Yun returned to China, she could save a sum of money as the first initial capital for her and Ai Yun's life together.
It's a pity that Ai Yun didn't give her a chance to express her thoughts, nor did she give her time to accomplish her goal step by step.He only gave her a heart-piercing text message, which also involved other girls, so Su Youqin's hatred had to be divided into several parts.
The hatred that was divided into several parts finally stuck back into Su Youqin's stomach, making her emotionally decadent for several years.
Shen Qianyao said that Fu Lili agreed to be with her after the college entrance examination, and then proposed to break up when Shen Qianyao was a freshman. Calculating the time, they broke up just before the major rift between Su Youqin and Ai Yun.
Looking at Shen Qianyao who was still smiling and mentioning her first love in front of her, Su Youqin suddenly felt that she was not as miserable as Shen Qianyao back then.At least Ai Yun really liked him, and Fu Lili probably has no feelings for Shen Qianyao.
"Boss Su, don't look at me like that. I like the person I like and pursue the person I want to pursue. Even if it's a spare tire, it also satisfied my own emotional needs during that time. I'm not pitiful." Shen Qianyao smiled. It was so flamboyant that Su Youqin wanted to reach out and press down the corners of her upturned mouth.
Su Youqin moved her fingers slightly, and then quickly tapped on the phone screen:
"Well, they are pitiful."
"They're the ones we left behind."
Shen Qianyao raised her head to meet Su Youqin's gaze, and nodded slightly: "Yes, they are the past that we voluntarily abandoned."
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The author has something to say:
Let go of the past and move on with the present.
In the next chapter, the development of the emotional line begins now.
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